kinda missed my 11.11 opportunity but how i wish i were somewhere else. maybe strolling around somewhere in Europe. or even cooking my favorite meal back in my room miles away, my newly declared comfort zone. the past three days have been the hardest. bet my tears are all dried out. nothing more could come out of my eyes. anyway, this blog is up as one of my distractions made to make me forget. lets see how it goes.

so proud of myself tho. just spent the last 5 hours trying to recall everything i knew about blogging from 7th grade. after lots and lots of surfing on the internet here comes my first post, started typing at 11.14 pm. elyra finally blooms. did not even plan this when i woke up this morning. just got the idea a few hours back after a non stop scroll of inspiration hunt. not sure how to keep this up but lets try. i don't really expect a lot considering how many times i tried to come back but failed miserably. gonna sleep (read: overthink) now. hope tomorrow would be better.that i would feel better. finger crossed.